“Honey.” She motions at a glitter box and I give it to her.
I opt to go upstairs to my room and grin like an idiot at the thought of rereading Akira’s letter and thinking of an equally sarcastic reply. It’s a game of ours.
“Nao, wait.”
I’m two steps in, but I turn around to face Mom. She has placed the phone in her slacks’ pocket, putting a rare premature end to her conversation with her assistant, her lawyer, her accountant. Anyone who needs the great Riko Chester’s time.
She was born in Japan as Riko Sato, but she changed her last name as soon as she got American citizenship when I was a kid.
Mom is a small woman but keeps her hair long, not short like I do, and she looks like my older sister, not the woman who gave birth to me. She has flawless skin and beautiful small features that she passed down to me. Though she’s paler and has more dark circles than usual lately.
Her eyes are brown, but nowhere as big or as dark as mine. Which I guess is a feature I got from my father, who’s sort of a taboo subject in front of her.
“How did school go?” she asks with a slight accent. Since she’s first-generation, she doesn’t really speak with an American accent as I do, but it’s not for lack of trying. I guess being born speaking in a certain way stamps you for life.
I lift a shoulder. “The usual.”
Mom reaches for her pack of cigarettes and steps back from the mannequin as she lights one, then takes a drag. “How about practice?”
“It was cool.”
“Are you lying to me?”
“As if I could. You’d call the dean and get all the deets. Or maybe the coach, since she was there.”
“Do not sass me, young lady.”
“I’m not. Just making your job easy for you since, I don’t know, you prefer asking others about me instead of actually attending any of the stupid games I bust my ass for.”
“Watch your language. And it’s not like I don’t attend them because I don’t want to. Some of us work, Naomi.”
“Get back to it then.”
“Nao-chan…”
My stomach flips whenever she calls me in that endearing way. It’s like I’m back to being a little girl, when Mom was my world.
Until the red night shattered it.
She approaches slowly, releasing a puff of nicotine into the air. “Are you mad at me?”
“I don’t know, Mom. Maybe I am.”
She strokes my arm. “I’m sorry. I know I’m barely around lately. But it’s all for you.”
“No, Mom. No. Don’t use the excuse that it’s for me. It stopped being for me after you bought this house and secured both our futures. Now, it’s just for you.”
She drops her hand, and although it’s painful and I want her to comfort me again, I’m well aware that it’s useless. Mom will always do what she thinks is best, not caring about what type of results that brings to my life.
“One day, you’ll understand it all. At least, I hope you will.” She smiles with a hint of defeat. “Go freshen up before delivery gets here. I ordered Italian.”
“What’s the occasion?” While I’m secretly glad she’s eating in tonight, I’m surprised she doesn’t have some sort of a dinner set up somewhere with all the associates and business partners she has.
“Why does there have to be an occasion for me to eat with my daughter?” She smiles again, but it’s still with that note of defeat, or is that sadness?
I don’t ponder on it long, because she kills her cigarette in an ashtray and goes back to her work.
Me, however? I can’t help the giddiness I feel at the thought of having dinner with her.