His hands flew over the piano, muscles tightened in his forearms as he leaned forward and continued singing.
“My biggest fear, is not the ending of this life, but going through it without you by my side.” He repeated the chorus and closed his eyes, humming the haunting melody in such a way that I felt hypnotized.
“Letting her go will be the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do — but I’m doing it so I can say goodbye to her — and good morning to you. Tell me it’s not too late to ask for a second.” He smirked but continued singing. “Third, fourth, tenth date.” His hands slowed. “Loving you will always be easy because when I look into your eyes I know you see the real me, so be my love, be my rain, be my clouds, be my pain.”
“My biggest fear, is not the ending of this life, but going through it without you by my side.” He stopped playing.
The room fell silent.
“That was beautiful.”
Gabe turned. “It’s your song.”
“My song?” I repeated.
“Saylor’s song.” His smile returned. “I know it’s not very creative, but, it’s yours.”
“No.” I put my hand over his. “It’s ours.”
Gabe’s smile lit up my world as he leaned in and kissed me across the mouth.
“One more left,” I whispered against his lips.
“One more?” He pulled back.
“Tear.” I released a deep sigh “You only have one more to make up for.”
“I thought that’s what all this kissing was for.” He teased.
Laughing, I kissed him harder as his arms wrapped around me. He lifted me into the air and pushed me against the wall, assaulting my lips with such force that I let out a pitiful moan. And then another as his tongue twisted around mine, retreated and then pushed forward again. The guy could kiss. Seriously. Could. Kiss.
My knees weakened as he pressed his hands to my stomach steadying me on my feet.
“Gabe? Saylor?” My mom’s voice echoed down the hall.
I sighed in frustration as Gabe pulled back and bestowed one more kiss on my mouth.
“In here,” he called.
Mom walked into the room, took one look at me, and stumbled a bit. Once she regained her posture, she cleared her throat. “The oxygen mask is helping her breathe during the day, the ventilator at night, but… Gabe, I don’t have a good feeling. Her coloring is very pale, and her face…” Mom sighed. “What I’m trying to say is, she’s transitioning. I can see it. I can feel it. She’s starting to go.”
“Go?” Gabe croaked.
“Gabe.” Mom reached out and grabbed his hand firmly in hers. “Kimmy’s dying, but you need to let her go. Do you understand? People… even in Kimmy’s case, they try to hold on. They hold on and it’s so very painful when they do. The best thing you can do for her is allow her to rest in peace. Give her permission not to be strong.”
Gabe swayed on his feet. “I’ve been saying goodbye for years.”
“Maybe this time…” Mom said wisely. “You should mean it.”
Chapter Forty-Nine
It was like the accident all over again. I felt powerless — until Saylor grabbed my hand and didn’t let go. I used her strength — I used all of it. And for once I didn’t feel guilty for needing someone else. She was my savior. —Gabe H.
Gabe
Saylor held my hand as we walked into the room. It was nearing midnight, so the room was blanketed in black.
The only sound was that of the machine breathing for Princess, and the noises from her chest that would follow.