“Why would he be angry with you?”
“Again, no idea.”
“Where are they?” Renie asked Ben when she got inside.
“Downstairs. He wanted to make sure she stayed asleep.”
Liv asked Ben to go into town to get the crib, and he told her his parents had one at their place. He’d run and get it.
“I better go check on them,” Renie said once he’d left.
“Okay, honey. Let me know if you need anything.”
“Billy?” Renie said softly when she walked into the room.
“Shh,” he answered. She turned on the small lamp that sat on the dresser, so she could see where she was going in the dark room.
She sat down on the bed. Willow was asleep between them. They stayed quiet for a few minutes. Renie lay down and let her eyes close.
“I don’t understand it.”
“What did you say?” She must’ve dozed off.
“I don’t understand why you did it.”
“Did what Billy?”
“Come on, let’s not talk in here. I don’t want her to wake up.” His voice was a cross between a snap and a whisper.
They went out of the door and saw Liv and the boys in the family room.
Liv saw them and asked the boys to come upstairs with her. She thanked them for being so quiet, but suggested they give Billy and Renie privacy.
“Thanks,” Renie murmured as they walked by.
Renie slid down the wall outside the bedroom door, and Billy sat down across from her with his back against the opposite wall.
“Tell me what’s going on, Billy.”
“It hurts. It hurts that it took you so God damned long. And for no reason.”
“What are you talking about?”
“You. You’re so good with her. As though there’s never been a problem. So why? Why did you take so fucking long, Renie?”
She raised her knees up in front of her, crossed her arms over them, and put her head down.
“Don’t you dare hide from me. Answer me dammit. Why? You put me through hell, and now you act as if…”
“As if what, Billy?”
He started to speak, and shook his head.
“You act as if you…care about her.” His knees came up and he put his head down on his arms as she had. “It’s makin’ me fucking crazy.”
Renie moved across the hall and sat up against him. “It wasn’t her Billy. It was never Willow.”
“Well what was it then? What? I’m trying to understand how you could go from not wanting to know her to being so good with her.”