I glanced up that time to find his gaze hadn’t moved anywhere. “No.”
And just like that, despite feeling like I’d gotten half my energy sucked out of me and the headache that hadn’t gone away, I sat up, kicked the sheet off my legs, set Charlotte back on the bed before I swung my legs to the side and got up.
“If your head still hurts, I left painkillers on the table beside your bed,” Ivan let me know.
I managed a nod, then grabbed the pills, dropping them in my mouth and swallowing them with what was left of the water in the glass beside the bed. And it wasn’t until I was swallowing them, that I realized he’d brought them to me.
I glanced at Ivan, who hadn’t moved from his spot standing beside the bed with his rabbit, less than two feet away from me, and said, the words coming out easier than they ever had before, “Thank you.”
He didn’t look surprised… but he did just… look. As he held that freaking giant bunny.
One shower minus Charlotte, the most unenthusiastic three minutes of my life getting dressed, another glass of water, and a short drive later, we were pulling up to his parents’ house. And I was ready to take another nap.
The house was in a gated community in south Houston set up on a couple of acres that separated each mansion from one another. The Lukov’s lived in a six-thousand-square-foot stucco and tile-roofed monstrosity with an infinity pool that Karina and I had spent a lot of time in during our teenage years. Well, not a lot of time, but more than I spent just about anywhere else that wasn’t school, the LC, or home.
Ivan pulled his car into the winding driveway leading to the back of the house and parked it just outside the oversized four-car garage. I let out a tired breath as we got out and headed toward the back door that I’d always gone through in the past. Ivan opened it using a key, and I finally took the time to take in the button-down shirt he had on tucked into fitted gray pants that I had a feeling were custom-made, because there was no way his bubble butt could fit into anything that didn’t stretch, and black leather shoes that almost looked like boots. Then I looked down at the fitted T-shirt and leggings I’d put on, and shrugged inside. The Lukovs had seen me in worse. They knew I wasn’t feeling well. It wasn’t like I was meeting my new boyfriend’s parents.
Not that that had ever happened. I’d dated a little before I switched to pairs, but every guy I went out with turned out to be a dick by the second date. There had only been one guy I’d seen for a few months, but I couldn’t remember what he looked like anymore.
“Hello?” Ivan called out the second he was inside the kitchen that the door led into.
I closed the door behind us, leaning against it for a moment when exhaustion hit me hard once more. The kitchen was the same as the last time I’d seen it, almost… a year ago. The last time I’d come over was for Karina’s last birthday, and that had been right after Paul’s bitch ass bailed on me. Then she had left for another year of medical school, and now we were here.
“Living room!” Mrs. Lukov’s voice called out.
Ivan glanced at me over his shoulder and frowned. “You all right?”
I nodded, and even that seemed like it took too much energy.
He must have read it on my face because he frowned. “We should have stayed home.”
“I’ll be fine,” I said, pushing away from the door.
He didn’t look like he believed me, but he didn’t say anything either as I walked toward him.
Instead, Ivan held out his hand, and I didn’t think much of it as I slipped my hand into his and leaned into his side without thinking about it. I was used to it, I could tell myself. I was used to being right up against him. It felt more natural than it should have.
“You’re feeling that bad again?” he asked gently, taking my weight without a complaint.
I shook my head against his shoulder. “Just tired.”
His hand squeezed mine. “Want some more water?”
“I’m okay.”
He “hmmed” before asking, “What hurts?”
I swallowed and closed my eyes for a moment. “Everything.”
There was no hesitation as Ivan asked, “Want a hug? You liked that before.”
I nodded.
Ivan was silent as he turned his body and wrapped those long, muscular arms around me, pulling me into his build so that my face went right for that space between his pectorals. My own sigh was instant. One of his hands went flat to my spine and started rubbing up and down the length of it before pausing at the highest point and then rubbing over one shoulder blade and then the other. Circle, circle, circle, easing the ache somehow like it was fucking magic.
“That feels nice,” I whispered, trying to get closer into him.
Something about being sick just made me want to be held. And especially when it was Ivan. He was big enough to really hold me, and he wasn’t squeamish or weird about affection or the contact. He was used to it too, I guess.
One of those big hands went to the back of my neck and started kneading the muscles there, and I swear to God, I moaned.
Ivan chuckled low into the top of my head. “That good?”
“So good,” I whispered, pretty much leaning my entire weight into him. “I could fall asleep like this.”
“I’ll rub your back some more when we get back,” he offered, one hand going to my neck, the other one still rubbing up and down both sections on either side of my spine.
“Promise?”
He chuckled some more. “Promise. But when I get sick, you’re going to have to return the favor.”
“Sure. Uh-huh.”
“Promise?” the pain in the ass asked quietly, his tone pretty amused.
“Promise.”
I sighed into his chest, taking a whiff of that subtle, sweet cologne he usually had on.
“My poor, poor Jasmine,” came a familiar voice from somewhere close by.
I froze, realizing where the hell I was and what the hell Mrs. Lukov would see and think, and was about to take a step back when the arms around me grew tighter. So tight I knew there was no way I was about to get a chance to jump back like we’d gotten caught making out, when all he’d been doing was giving me a hug and rubbing my back. You know. Considering I’d been butt fucking naked a few weeks ago in front of him and he’d had his hands all over the place.
But something about getting caught getting a hug from Ivan seemed even more vulnerable and personal than if we would have been kissing.
At least that’s what I thought.
“She’s not feeling well,” Ivan murmured directly above my head, almost like he was talking into my hair.
“Are you taking your fever reducer?” Mrs. Lukov asked from somewhere behind me.
I still didn’t move as I said, “Hi and yes. Ivan’s been keeping me stocked on them.”
How did she know I’d had a fever?
“Stop being greedy, Vanya, and let me give her a hug too,” Mrs. Lukov demanded.
With one more squeeze around my body by those warm arms of his, he let me go, and I immediately felt heat rise to my face, and I prayed it came off more like I was overheated because of my fever—if I even still had one—and not because of getting caught getting affection from this woman’s son. The second I was out of his hold, I turned around slowly and came face-to-face with Mrs. Lukov, who had apparently been standing directly behind me.
The older woman was already beaming at me. A little older than my mom, Mrs. Lukov looked liked a perfect mix of both her kids… except older. Jet black hair that she had been dying to her natural color for as long as I had known her, tall, slim, with pale skin and the brightest blue eyes that she had passed down to Ivan. She was almost as beautiful as my own mom.
She just wasn’t nuts.
“You look terrible, Jasmine,” Mrs. Lukov claimed, a moment before she wrapped her arms around me to pull me into a hug. At what I guessed was about five foot seven, she almost dwarfed me.
“I feel terrible,” I told her honestly, hugging her back. “Thank you for inviting me. I hope I don’t get you sick.”
“Oh, shush. I’ve been telling Vanya to bring you by since he told me he’s been having Saturday dinner with your family, but he pretends not to hear me,” she claimed, rocking me from side to side. “I was so excited when he told me you were going to be his new partner. Petr and I had always thought it was only a matter of time.”
Yeah, his parents were sweet. And a little na?ve. But I liked them a lot.
“I had a dream once many years ago that both of you were on the stands winning a gold medal,” she said, still rocking me like I was a baby, and I was eating that shit up because not even my own mom did that to me. “Maybe it was a sign, hmm?”
And I couldn’t help how I tensed at the reminder of what I wouldn’t get.
At least not with Ivan.
But I had known that coming into this, hadn’t I? I didn’t have a reason to be disappointed. Something was better than nothing. Hopefully we could take a stand together, only it wouldn’t be for an Olympic medal.
But it would have to be enough.