“It was only a question,” he said again, and then he laughed at how he was defending himself. At how he was being used yet again. At how she was ready to leave him here. It wasn’t hard to find words when he was in pain. “Do you think I’m some sort of easy mark? Is that why you agreed to letting me be your horseman? Why you didn’t want me telling the others?”
She stilled, hurting his pride when she dared to meet his eyes.
“I will take you back to the palace and chain you to your bed,” he growled in her ear. “This is madness.”
She dropped the other rein, her knuckles bone white. Their exhales clouded the air like smoke.
“I don’t—I don’t want Lana to see me like this. I’m not going to burden her the way our mother did,” she said, almost reluctantly. “Yasmine doesn’t understand. Kifah and Altair—I saw them yesterday in the caliph’s room. I saw their faces, Nasir.” Her words came in a rush. “I’m losing all sense of right and wrong, and there’s no one who understands. Not—not the way you can. No one else will look at me and know that I’m still here.” She haltingly lowered her gaze to him. “That was why I agreed. Not because I have no respect for you. Not because you’re worth nothing to me.”
A rider on a bay horse rushed past them, breaking the heavy silence. They needed to move. Altair’s plan banked on proper timing, and Nasir had factored just enough time for them and Afya to rest.
“You understand, don’t you?” she asked softly. “You know what that means. Don’t you?”
What you mean to me, her eyes said. Because though she was bold in the face of so much, his presence, he had learned, often drenched her in diffidence.
And it was only natural that after a lifetime of insults, he did not know how to react to words from the heart. Words that held emotions he had never experienced, no matter what he once believed. She puzzled him, too—one moment she was asking him what he wanted of her. The next, he was baring his heart and she was turning away, confusing him. One moment she refused his crown, the next she chose him over everyone else.
He took the reins from her outstretched hands.
CHAPTER 78
Six safin were dead. The number itself was insignificant, but this was no casualty of one of Altair’s wars. It was slaughter in the main jumu’a of Sultan’s Keep, a square meant for decrees and announcements, a place where his baby brother’s birth was once celebrated.
All six of the safin had been gutted, their innards smeared across the gray stone, arms stretched and pinned across erect beams, eyes gouged by eager predators. Altair sensed a reason behind such specificity, but it was yet another detail his father hadn’t confided in him. Hundreds of stones littered the ground, tainted red.
The messenger, panting and shivering in Demenhur’s cold, hadn’t skimped on a single detail.
They were being punished for abandoning Arawiya after magic disappeared, the new king proclaimed. It should have wrought horror in the hearts of people, a leader fresh on the throne establishing his rule with vitriol and violence. Instead, delight was widespread, and it was only then that Altair realized how angry ordinary Arawiyans had been. They had craved justice long enough that the form in which it was achieved ceased to matter.
The second messenger arrived immediately after, reiterating Haytham’s message of a swath of darkness bleeding across Sarasin’s skies, confirming their suspicions that the new caliph was indeed an ifrit wearing the mortal skin of the merchant Muzaffar. There was no other reason the caliphate remained silent as fiery-staved ifrit trampled people and, worst of all, children left and right. Confusion held them in a transitory restraint as they waited for their caliph to act on their behalf.
Chaos Altair could handle, but it was this careful upending from the root that unnerved him, for everything Altair and Benyamin had worked for was slowly beginning to unravel.
“If you grip that beam any tighter, the entire palace might fall on us,” Kifah called over the continuous whip, whip, whip of her spear.
If there was one thing that drove Altair’s mind to red, raging anger, it was the death of children, the senseless loss of innocence.
He loosened his grip and—hating that he had to turn his entire head to see whatever was on his left—looked to Nasir, only to find the prince absent. Akhh, so that was why he was more silent than usual.
“Where’d he go?”
Kifah shrugged. “I’m not his mother.”
Altair scowled and left the war room with its collection of unfurled maps and plans that had once been used to thwart him and his armies. Or to attempt to do so, at least. Altair wasn’t a prize general for nothing. Oh, how the tables had turned. Here he was in Demenhur, bumping noses with the caliph’s wazir and befriending generals he’d once leveled swords with in battle.
The Demenhune palace was thick with fear. The dignitaries were adamant in their attempts to leave, fearful that ifrit were coming for them, that they were next on the Lion’s list to be halved like fish on a board. Altair had almost laughed. If only they knew the truth.
“We need to discuss Zafira,” Kifah said, somehow following his line of thought.
“She’s not some … thing to be discussed.”
“You know what I mean.”
“Just as you know that there’s nothing we can do,” Altair said tiredly.
Kifah sighed. “We can’t shut her away. If it was really the Jawarat that made her kill him, she needs us.”
She needed them regardless. She was their friend. A small girl stepped into the hall and stopped short at the sight of him. He recognized her sharp features—she’d been in the room the night before, staring unflinchingly at the caliph’s mutilated corpse. There was something about the way she held herself that reminded him vaguely of Aya, but he brushed it away.