I managed a laugh as Brennan did the Bond impersonation. “Deal.”
But as I watched Brennan grab a single container of Neapolitan ice cream from the freezer, I wanted to cry all over again. Because with Brennan’s admission that he was in love with this man, the little spark of hope I had left inside of me died and I reached a painful decision that had been haunting me from the moment I’d spied my childhood crush when he’d stepped over the threshold of this apartment for the first time.
It was time to let Brennan go for good.
Chapter Fourteen
Brennan
I love you.
Three little words that should have been easy to say considering they were the truth, but as I watched Memphis’s eyes slide closed as the pleasure began to consume him, I bit back the words and kissed him instead. His dick was buried balls deep inside my ass, but unlike many of the other times we’d been together, he’d given me complete and total control by placing me on top of him as he’d gripped the bed linens between his big fists. I kept rolling my hips back and forth over him, teasing his dick with short tugs but not giving him the friction he needed to get off. My own dick was flushed red with the need to come and I didn’t dare touch it for fear that I’d come before he did.
And this time I was going to make sure I got to watch every second of him finding his pleasure, even if it meant I ended up with a case of blue balls.
I used my hand to brace myself on Memphis’s sweat slickened chest as I began lifting my hips up before dropping them back down. He grunted every time I did it, but his eyes were still closed.
“Look at me,” I whispered and as soon as he opened his eyes, I tightened my inner muscles on him and lifted almost all the way off. Memphis let out a harsh curse and then lifted his hips up as I dropped back down. As good as it felt, I kept my eyes on his, which had gone black with wild pleasure.
“Touch me,” I urged as I reached to pull his hands free of the comforter.
“I’ll come too fast if I touch you,” he bit out even as his fingers dug into my thighs.
“The sooner you come, the sooner I get to do this all over again to you,” I murmured as I took his hands and lifted them to my chest and urged him to follow a path down my body. I snaked his hands around to my ass and groaned in satisfaction when he palmed me hard. Then I felt one of his fingers pushing inside of me and I let out a rough shout as a stream of pre-cum leaked out of my cock.
“You still want me to touch you?” Memphis said gruffly even as he began thrusting his finger in and out of my body.
“Maybe not,” I said with a laugh and I reached behind me to grab his wrists. I pinned them to the bed by his head and leaned my body over him even as I continued to pump up and down on him.
Memphis’s breaths became much harsher as I worked us into a frenzy and while he tried to get his hands free of my hold, he didn’t try as hard as he could have because if he had, there would have been no way for me to hold him. The knowledge that I was in complete control now was a major rush and I dared to drop my mouth against his and whisper, “I want to fuck you like this someday – holding you down like this so all you can do is feel.”
I was shocked when Memphis came before I even finished my sentence. His release triggered my own and I quickly grabbed my dick with one hand and gave it several hard tugs, but I managed to keep my eyes on Memphis as pleasure caused his eyes to go wide and wild for a moment, before relief relaxed his expression even as his body continued to thrust into mine. I let my own orgasm wash over me and when the shudders finally eased, I released Memphis’s wrist with my other hand and linked his fingers with mine. His cock continued to pulse deep inside of me and we lay there in silence until the passion completely subsided. His lips found mine and then he was rolling me to my back.
We hadn’t talked much since I’d arrived at his hotel. I’d been all ready to demand that Memphis tell me why he’d been avoiding me this past week, but like all the other times we’d come together, he’d started kissing me before I could even speak. And while I wanted that, I also found that I needed confirmation that what we had wasn’t just physical anymore. I just didn’t know how to approach it with him. I also wasn’t sure I was willing to give up what we had if Memphis refused to acknowledge that it was about more than just sex.