The more I tried to focus on how best to please Nikolai, the more doubt began to creep into my thoughts. What if I couldn’t meet his expectations? What if I tried and he found me lacking? What if I only had this one chance to show him what kind of pleasure I could bring him?
Doubt quickly turned to fear and then panic took over. Terrified that I would lose him altogether, I pulled his heavy cock from his pants and stroked it several times. Nikolai moaned and dropped his head back against the seat.
“Fuck, yes,” he growled.
That was what I needed. More of him needing me. I forgot about my desperate need to come as I shifted off Nikolai’s lap and slid to my knees on the floor.
"Jude?" Nikolai murmured as he looked down at me.
"Shhh," I said. "Want to make you feel good," I added as I nuzzled his erection.
I turned my head with the intention of closing my lips over his crown when he suddenly grabbed my arm and said, "I'm too close."
As far as I was concerned, that was a good thing. "It's okay," I said as I closed my fingers around his shaft.
Nikolai cursed again before dragging me back onto his lap. “We go together,” he said impatiently and then he was dragging me down for a kiss. It was a no-holds-barred kiss that left me shaking. When Nikolai’s calloused fingers wrapped around my dick, I forgot all about my good intentions to make sure he got off and instead focused on my own need to find my release.
"Yeah, baby, that's it," Nikolai practically snarled as he gave me a few hard pumps that had my balls drawing up tight against my body.
I threw my head back and used my hands on Nikolai’s knees to brace myself as I fucked his big hand. I was sure it couldn't get any better when I suddenly felt the heat of him against my sensitive skin. He’d wrapped his hand around both our dicks at the same time and was frantically working to jerk us both off.
"Oh God, yes!” I cried as my orgasm began to build. My head felt like it was going to explode right off my body. Terrified that I would shoot my load too soon, I leaned forward and threaded my fingers through Nikolai's soft hair. It was the most natural thing for our mouths to come together. Despite the pleasure of what he was doing to me… to us, I couldn’t stop thinking about how badly I wanted him buried balls-deep inside of me. I wanted his release to fill me. I wanted it to stay inside of me so he’d be a part of me forever.
As badly as I wanted him to fuck me, I knew there was no way I could hold out long enough to make that happen. With every stroke of his hand, I was that much closer to losing it. Nikolai’s free hand had slipped beneath the waistband of my pants at my back and then he was pushing them down, exposing me completely. He gripped my ass hard as he silently urged me to fuck his hand harder and harder. Sweat rolled down my back as I gripped the top of the seat.
Our bodies moved as one as we took each other closer and closer to the edge. As desperate as I was to come, I knew what it would mean when I did. It would be over and I’d lose him.
Again.
The desperation to come warred with the fear of what would happen when I did. I released my hold on the seat and threaded my fingers through Nikolai’s hair instead. I tilted his head back and let my lips hover just over his slightly parted ones.
“Promise me,” I whispered. "Promise me this won’t be the last time we’re like this, Nikolai," I repeated.
Nikolai’s dark eyes pierced mine. There was an almost eerie silence between us even as our lower bodies continued to grind against one another.
“Nikolai—”
"I promise," he said, his breath catching harshly in his throat. He closed his eyes for the briefest of moments as he gave in to the powerful sensations that rocked his body. When he opened them again, I saw it.
The promise in his eyes.
I cried out as the orgasm chose that moment to rip through me with brutal intensity. I knew I was likely hurting Nikolai as I dug my fingers into his shoulders, but I couldn't release him for anything in the world.
"That's it, baby," Nikolai snarled and then he shouted my name. Hot cum hit my belly and then it was sliding over the head of my dick as Nikolai continued to stroke us both. My body jerked and thrashed against his. I had no way of knowing if it was his semen or mine that coated my sensitive skin as Nikolai kept our dicks pressed together.