Asking yourself a question, that’s how resistance begins.
And then ask that very question to someone else.
—REMCO CAMPERT
May 1941
France
On the Monday Isabelle left for Paris, Vianne kept busy. She washed clothes and hung them out to dry; she weeded her garden and gathered a few early-ripening vegetables. At the end of a long day, she treated herself to a bath and washed her hair. She was drying it with a towel when she heard a knock at the door. Startled by an unexpected guest, she buttoned her bodice as she went to the door. Water dripped onto her shoulders.
When she opened the door, she found Captain Beck standing there, dressed in his field uniform, dust peppering his face. “Herr Captain,” she said, pushing the wet hair away from her face.
“Madame,” he said. “A colleague and I went fishing today. I have brought you what we caught.”
“Fresh fish? How lovely. I will fry it up for you.”
“For us, Madame. You and me and Sophie.”
Vianne couldn’t look away from either Beck or the fish in his hands. She knew without a doubt that Isabelle wouldn’t accept this gift. Just as she knew that her friends and neighbors would claim to turn it down. Food. From the enemy. It was a matter of pride to turn it down. Everyone knew that.
“I have neither stolen nor demanded it. No Frenchman has more of a right to it than I. There can be no dishonor in your taking it.”
He was right. This was a fish from local waters. He had not confiscated it. Even as she reached for the fish, she felt the weight of rationalization settle heavily upon her.
“You rarely do us the honor of eating with us.”
“It is different now,” he said. “With your sister away.”
Vianne backed into the house to allow him entry. As always, he removed his hat as soon as he stepped inside, and clomped across the wooden floor to his room. Vianne didn’t notice until she heard the click-shut of his door that she was still standing there, holding a dead fish wrapped in a recent edition of the Pariser Zeitung, the German newspaper printed in Paris.
She returned to the kitchen. When she laid the paper-wrapped fish out on the butcher block, she saw that he’d already cleaned the fish, even going so far as to shave off the scales. She lit the gas stove and put a cast-iron pan over the heat, adding a precious spoonful of oil to the pan. While cubes of potato browned and onion carmelized, she seasoned the fish with salt and pepper and set it aside. In no time, tantalizing aromas filled the house, and Sophie came running into the kitchen, skidding to a stop in the empty space where the breakfast table used to be.
“Fish,” she said with reverence.
Vianne used her spoon to create a well within the vegetables and put the fish in the middle to fry. Tiny bits of grease popped up; the skin sizzled and turned crisp. At the very end, she placed a few preserved lemons in the pan, watching them melt over everything.
“Go tell Captain Beck that supper is ready.”
“He is eating with us? Tante Isabelle would have something to say about that. Before she left, she told me to never look him in the eye and to try not to be in the same room with him.”
Vianne sighed. The ghost of her sister lingered. “He brought us the fish, Sophie, and he lives here.”
“Oui, Maman. I know that. Still, she said—”
“Go call the captain for supper. Isabelle is gone, and with her, her extreme worries. Now, go.”
Vianne returned to the stove. Moments later, she carried out a heavy ceramic tray bearing the fried fish surrounded by the pan-roasted vegetables and preserved lemons, all of it enhanced with fresh parsley. The tangy, lemony sauce in the bottom of the pan, swimming with crusty brown bits, could have benefited from butter, but still it smelled heavenly. She carried it into the dining room and found Sophie already seated, with Captain Beck beside her.
In Antoine’s chair.
Vianne missed a step.
Beck rose politely and moved quickly to pull out her chair. She paused only slightly as he took the platter from her.
“This looks most becoming,” he said in a hearty voice. Once again, his French was not quite right.
Vianne sat down and scooted in to her place at the table. Before she could think of what to say, Beck was pouring her wine.