“You know,” he said, his voice light as a moth’s wing, “I’m in the same boat as him.”

“What?” I said.

“No matter what Ky I am always going to love you. I can’t help it. There is something so infectious about you. People can’t help but love you,” He said.

I laughed, “You should talk to my parents, I mean my mom, or – never mind. But the point is they did a very good job of not loving me,” I said staring at the ground and picking at the grass.

“You know that they loved you,” He said and reached his hand out to my shoulder but pulled it quickly back before he touched me.

I chuckled but only so I wouldn’t cry again.

“They did a very good job of proving the opposite,” I said, my fingers digging into the dirt and pulling up gobs of grass in the process.

“Tell me. You’ve never told me much about them,” he said.

“There’s not much to tell.”

“Obviously they hurt you and I’m your best friend. I just want to understand, Ky,” he said, his voice and eyes full of pleading.

I let out a deep breath and decided to plunge.

“We used to be happy, if there is such a thing as being happy. I could talk to my parents and my brothers. We ate meals together and laughed and joked. We had family game night. My mom would never play; she always said she had to referee us because we would cheat if she didn’t. But we were all very respectful of one another. But then my brothers left for college and that perfect façade began to crack. My dad got the wandering eye and began to stay at work later and later. My mom suspected he was cheating but instead of confronting him she resorted to alcohol and drugs. He found someone else and filed for divorce. He promised to always take care of me and my mom so he paid for us to move to Rome. But that wasn’t enough for my mom. She became like a zombie and over dosed on her medication and died. Jonathon and Patrick turned her into a vampire. But don’t you see Isaac she didn’t love me enough to live. She’d rather die than be my mother. I’m unlovable,” I moaned.

“Oh, Ky you know that isn’t true,” he said.

“You didn’t let me finish,” I said.

“Oh.”

“Isaac, Selena kidnapped my father! She used my own father against me! She tormented him just like she did me! And then she made me watch him die! I will always have the image of him being murdered ingrained in my mind. Every time I close my eyes I see it happening all over again!” I yelled and screamed. It felt good to let go for a change. I needed to get this out. I didn’t care who heard or saw my meltdown.

“Do you want to tell me how it happened?” He whispered like he was speaking to a frightened rabbit.

“No, not really… maybe… okay,” I said taking a deep breath.

I took a couple more deep breaths to steady myself so that I wouldn’t start bawling.

He put his arms around me and rubbed my back in soothing motions. I didn’t flinch or yell at him this time. Right now, he was merely Isaac my friend, and I needed his support.

“You already know that Selena went crazy when her soul mate died. She and Jonathon had been best friends but she blamed him for her soul mate’s death. She swore vengeance on him. She said that she would live long enough for him to find his soul mate and then she would kill her, me. She began stalking me. Selena would leave me these cryptic notes. Jonathon and his family left for a hunting trip with my mom and left me by myself at my mother’s house. I didn’t know it at the time but a vampire friend of theirs was keeping a watch on me to make sure nothing bad happened to me. But things didn’t go according to plan. Selena killed the guard and snuck into the house. I- I thought she was going to kill me then. But she left me. She wasn’t done playing with me like a game board pawn.

“As you know Jonathon left me. He thought that if he left, if Selena thought that he didn’t want me or love me, that she would leave me alone. I believed him when he said that he didn’t want me and I must say I gave him good reason. After all, it isn’t every day that a human refuses immortality with their soul mate. His plan worked. For a while at least,” I laughed. “Soon enough though Selena came back for me. You already know that she kidnapped me from the dance. She… she took me to her old house. The place where her soul mate died and I thought I would die as well. I awoke to something I thought I would never see. My father was there. He had already been tortured by her. But suddenly knowing that we were both going to die I was able to forgive him. Oh, how I wish I could have forgiven him sooner! But I’m stubborn and I wouldn’t forgive him until it was too late. She kept us barely alive and once again my stubbornness almost killed me and did kill my father.

“I wouldn’t think any thoughts of Jonathon until I thought I was going to die. If I had been thinking about him sooner he could have located me by my thoughts that were directed towards him. As it is, Selena came for me. My dad tried to save me. He ran at her so the grabbed him by the hair and pulled, just slightly, but with a vampire’s strength his head separated from his body easily. His body landed with a thump on the stone floor and Selena dropped his head onto the floor. It rolled like a ball towards me. My dad’s severed head was only inches from my own his dull, blank, unseeing green eyes, the same color as my own, stared up at me. I ran across the room and threw up. She started scratching me.

“The venom from her fingernail burned my skin. I was on fire. I knew I was going to die so I broke the dam that held back all thoughts of Jonathon and he was able to speak to me through my thoughts. I stalled for time and he was able to save me. I had to drink his blood in order to live. Selena’s venom was acting as a poison in my system I was going to die in minutes. But Jonathon saved me and so here I am today,” I finished breathlessly.

“Wow, Ky. I had no idea.”

“I just wish I hadn’t been so mad at my dad before. I hate that it took knowing that we were both going to die for me to get over my anger. My dad never stopped loving me but I stopped caring.”

“You can’t put that on yourself. He gave you reason to feel the way you did. You’re young. The way you reacted the situation, the divorce, everything, is normal, Kylie.”

“Yeah, maybe, but I can’t help but feel that it’s karma,” I said sadly.

“Life doesn’t work that way,” Isaac said.

“But it does,” I replied.

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