“Don’t touch me, Kyns.”
My eyes moved up his naked body and met his heated gaze. “Why not?” I asked with a teasing smile.
His eyes roamed over my body, and I loved how it made me feel. He was naked, and I still had on my panties. Thank God I wore the new pink lace ones.
“Because if you take my dick in your hands, I’m positive I’ll come.”
I chewed my lip again, staring at his penis. His very large penis.
Shoot, I’m going to be in pain.
“And for fuck’s sake, stop digging your teeth into your lip. It turns me on even more.”
I jerked my eyes back up to him and raised a brow, locking away that little piece of information in case I needed it for future use.
Taking a step back, I pushed my panties down and laid on the bed. Miles fished for his wallet, pulled out a condom and ripped it open. I watched his hands shake as he rolled it on. I was positive the sound of my heart hammering in my chest could be heard all the way into town.
Miles crawled onto the bed, and his hand went between my legs. I jumped.
“Relax, Kyns. I need to make you come.”
I closed my eyes tightly. “And how do you know that?”
His lips wrapped around my nipple as he pushed his finger inside me. I nearly shot off the bed. The feeling was delicious and not painful at all. Maybe all those girls were just saying it hurt, because this felt like heaven.
“Heard Robert McKay say if a girl is a virgin, you have to make her come first. It gets you wet and then it’s easier for both of us when I push inside you.”
“O-okay. I’m down for that.”
He kissed my lips softly.
“Open your eyes, Kyns. Look at me. I want to see what you look like when you come.”
I did as he asked. “Then don’t suck on my nipple again, Miles. Or you’re going to miss it!”
He smiled, and my heart melted on the spot.
Miles had obviously done this with a girl before, maybe even more than one. I tried not to let that bother me. He was good with his fingers, and he had me coming within a minute or two. The entire barn spun as I felt my orgasm race through my body.
“So much better than my own hand,” I panted.
“That was amazing. I nearly came watching you come.”
I let out a nervous laugh. “That would have sucked for you!”
He kissed me as he moved over my body. Then I felt him there, and I trembled.
“Relax, princess. Please try and relax.”
I did as he asked. The pain when he slowly pushed into me was almost unbearable. Miles watched my face intently as he pulled out some, then pushed back in.
“Jesus,” he whispered as he framed my face with his hands and kept working himself in. “It feels so damn good. How does it feel for you?”
I wanted to lie and tell him it felt good, but I had promised. “It hurts, but don’t stop.”
He paused. “Are you sure?”
“Miles, don’t stop. Please don’t stop.”
Once I got over the pain, it felt amazing for both of us. Miles seemed to lose a bit of control towards the end. It hurt but felt so good. I couldn’t imagine it feeling this way with any other man. Ever.
“Kyns, oh God. Kyns. Kysnlee.”
My name spilling from his lips as he came was something I vowed to never forget.
Rolling off of me, Miles attempted to get his breathing under control.
“Make me a promise right now, Kynslee. This will not ruin our friendship.”
I stared up at the wood beams of the barn rafter. Trying to get my heart on the same page as my brain.
“It won’t ruin anything, Miles.”
“Do you swear? Because if I lost your friendship I don’t know what I would do.”
Rolling over, I forced a smile. “It felt good, and I’m glad it was with you.”
“It didn’t mean anything, right?”
His words hurt more than I wanted to admit. “It was sex. That was all. Fun, somewhat painful, but still amazing sex.”
Miles smiled. “Let’s not talk about it again. I don’t want it to make things weird between us.”
“Okay, we won’t talk about it again.”
He leaned up and kissed me on the nose. “It was fucking fantastic, though.”
I giggled and watched him crawl out of the bed, take off the condom and look back at me. “Let me get something to clean you up. I’ll be right back, Kyns.”
I watched him dress and walk into the small bathroom in the loft. With a sigh, I dropped back onto the bed and closed my eyes.
This might not have meant anything for Miles, but for me, it meant everything. And yet we never had another night of curiosity. Not long after our first time together, Miles and I both moved on from experimenting with each other to dating other people in high school. Miles more so than me. I had promised to not let what happened between us ruin our friendship, and I vowed to keep that promise.