“You like my cock, baby girl?”
“So much,” I say roughly, struggling to even breathe properly. I can feel pressure everywhere as he rams me—obviously it feels best between my legs, but it’s tightening in my chest and my stomach, too.
“You want more of it?” he asks.
“Yes, please. All of it. Give me all of it.”
Somehow, he drives deeper, and I just about lose my mind. My arms are flying everywhere as I flail and grab at the bed, meanwhile still trying to hold my ass where it feels the best. He drives home with every thrust and I cry out louder with every impact, finally screaming and clawing at the bed as he sends me hurtling over the edge. I cry out until my throat feels raw, Brant still fucking me, adding guttural groans and “Fucks” of his own, but I can scarcely hear him.
My head buzzes, like that explosion was too much and I won’t be able to think or hear properly for a couple days. My legs are jelly now, so I can’t angle my ass like I was, but my body continues to be thrown back and forth on the bed as Brant continues to use me.
Even sated, pleasure rolls through my belly at the thought. When he finally comes inside me, his fingers dig into my hips again, but I don’t complain this time. I welcome the bruises, because I know when I see them as I’m getting ready or showering back at home, they’ll remind me of the nights my body brought Brant so much pleasure, he lost control for a few seconds.
He pulls out and rolls off me pretty quick, but he’s as spent as I am, so he doesn’t go far. He falls onto the bed beside me, then reaches over to grab me and gathers me against his chest. I go willingly, happily snuggling up against him so his hot skin is pressed against mine.
“Fuck, I love your pussy,” he tells me, breathing hard as he comes down from that orgasm.
“It’s a big fan of yours, too,” I tell him, sliding my hand across his shoulder and then hugging him tight. I can’t get close enough to him in these post-orgasmic moments. I crave the closeness so much, I’d crawl inside him if I could. His arms locked around me the way they are make me feel safe and protected, like nothing and no one could ever dare hurt me when I’m in Brant’s embrace.
Of course, he’s probably the thing most likely to hurt me. Even now, I’m desperate for a deeper hit of affection. If he bent his head and kissed me while holding me like this, I’d be his.
I guess that’s why he doesn’t.
The reminder that he wants to fuck me but doesn’t want me brings me back down a little. Not far enough to completely ruin my buzz, not enough to pull me from his arms, but it tarnishes my happiness ever so slightly.
We lie there tangled together for so long, Brant falls asleep.
My body is exhausted, but as the bliss from the orgasm begins to fade, my heart grows heavier. I don’t want to fall asleep; I want to stay here just the way I am, wrapped up in Brant’s arms, our naked bodies entwined like we’re lovers. I guess in the most technical of ways, we are, but I can’t help thinking we could have had more. I can’t help wishing I didn’t have to tell him that, wishing he’d decide on his own that he’s not taking me back home because he wants to keep me here with him.
Doesn’t seem to be in the cards for me, so I guess I’ll just try to stay awake and soak up a few more memories to take with me. Maybe I am an idiot for developing feelings for him, but how was I supposed to help it? When he’s not being mean and stupid, Brant’s amazing.
I sigh, letting my eyes travel over the strong planes of his handsome face. I don’t remember thinking he was the most handsome man in the world the night he showed up in my bedroom and I saw him for the first time, but that might’ve had something to do with me thinking he was going to kill me. When I look at him now, I can’t imagine looking at another man and thinking he could even hold a candle to Brant.
Since my eyes are so heavy, once I’ve looked my fill of him, I rest my head on his firm pectoral muscle and close my eyes. I’m not going to go to sleep yet, just need to rest my eyes for a minute. Then I’ll resume memorizing Brant, just in case I never get to hold him and see him like this again.