then down to my neck. I moaned softly and lay back. I
let him start undressing mee. He wasn't as awkward
about it this time and he paused periodically to kiss
inc again on the lips, the neck, and then my naked
breasts,
"One second," he said, rose, and went to the
bedroom door. "I'm not taking any chances on that
doll." he told me, and closed the door.
I laughed. In the shadows he undressed and
then he prepared and returned to me. I'm going to
make love. I thought, I'm going to make love with a
man willingly. It was funny, but before we began. I
couldn't help wondering if Brenda had ever tried to be
with a man and if that was when she'd been convinced
she'd rather be with a woman.
There was no doubt in my mind that this was Tyler's first time. too. Once again, he w
as somewhat awkward and clumsy, not sure of whether or not he was hurting me or not. He got excited quickly and it all seemed to be over before it had really begun. I felt terribly disappointed. He realized it and kept
apologizing.
"Just wait," he said. "Give me a few minutes.
I'll be better. It will be better."
I didn't know what to say. I wasn't that sure
about how it was supposed to be anyway. He lay next
to me, talking, telling me about how much he had
looked forward to tonight and being with me. but I
couldn't help feeling he was trying desperately to keep
me interested in him and in us.
"You must think I'm such a fool," he said. He
sounded very angry now and I wasn't sure he was
directing all that anger at himself.
"No, it's all right."