know exactly what happened here. Tyler. You don't
even have to try to explain it or make up something." "You do?"
"You just looked at me and got disgusted. I told
you I didn't want to get into that costume. I knew what
I would look like in it."
"Oh no, it wasn't you at all."
"What?"
"I mean, it wasn't solely because of you. It's
me," he said. "You were very honest about yourself
and told me some intimate things. I appreciate that,
but it makes me feel deceitful."
"Deceitful? Why?"
"I haven't told you the truth about myself,
April. The truth is not only don't I have a girlfriend
here or in Los Angeles. I've never had a girlfriend.
I've never been out on a real date, in fact."
I squinted, skeptical. "You've never been on a
date? This is what you want me to believe?" "I'm not lying. You have your personal and
emotional problems and I have mine."
I thought a moment and it was as if a lightbulb
went on in my head. You don't mean... are you saying
you're gay?"
Was this why he was so interested in why I had
left Brenda and run to Uncle Palaver, why he pursued
me for details about Celia?
"I guess I'm saving I don't know. I'm not sure if
I'm gay or just afraid. insecure. It's how I am. how I've
always been. Sometimes, I think I'm asexual, like an
amoeba."
"Well, as you asked me, are you attracted to