But we didn’t fuck, not then. We just held each other, made out, addicted to each other’s mouths. Like his tongue had a home in mine and mine in his.
And then I just held him, told him I loved him until he fell asleep.
The next morning was somber. Zander pretended he was okay. He made French toast again, smiled and joked and told his family how much he would miss them.
We had to take two vehicles so Zander and I could get back home. He didn’t argue about me going, just squeezed my hand and thanked me.
He and Ashley rode together, Molly riding with me. “I wish we lived in Atlanta. Mom misses Zander so much. He’s always been her favorite.”
“I’m sure that’s not true. She adores you. I can see it. And maybe one day you will. Even if not now, when you’re older, you can move wherever you want.”
She nodded, was quiet a moment, but I could tell there was more on her mind. “We’re different, me and Zander. I’ve always hated our dad. He wants to, but he just doesn’t work that way. He’s more like Mom than he wants to see. He always hopes Dad will change. I might only be twelve, but I know he won’t.”
“That’s one of the beauties about being human. We all do it differently.”
“Do you really love him?”
“I do.”
“Good. He deserves it. But don’t tell him I said that.”
I chuckled. “You’re a force to be reckoned with, Ms. Molly, and I’m so glad to have met you.”
“You too…only, don’t break my brother’s heart, or you’ll have me to deal with. Don’t tell him I said that either.”
My chest filled with warmth. “I won’t. I promise.”
When we got to the house, we discovered Zander’s father had taken the TV and their computer and had made a mess of things in the process. I started to clean while Zander consoled Ashley and Molly. It was crazy, how the world could be filled with such incredible people, yet such horrible ones too; how we could all coexist in this life made of ups and downs.
“You should come to Atlanta,” Zander said.
“It’s not your job to take care of me,” Ashley replied.
I said, “That’s what family does. Our home is always open for you.” Zander didn’t live with me, but it felt like my home was his and his family was mine.
Ashley stood, walked over, and hugged me. “I couldn’t be happier to have you in my son’s life.”
“That means I’m in yours too, so good luck to you. I can be a bit much,” I replied, making her laugh.
But they didn’t come with us. It wasn’t as if they could drop everything at the last minute, uproot their lives, and move away. They would do what they always did—move on from one of Zander’s dad’s visits.
We said our goodbyes, and Zander and I headed home.
That evening, we were naked together in bed after a shower when I pulled him on top of me. “My hole would like to be reacquainted with your cock, please.”
“I think you’re using me for sex.”
“Wouldn’t it be the other way around? Makes sense, considering I’m the best lay you’ve ever had.”
“Oh my God.” He rolled his eyes. “Are you going to spend the rest of our lives bringing that up?”
“I mean, wouldn’t you?” I teased.
Zander rolled off me and reached for the nightstand drawer. “Ugh. I guess. My dick has been feeling a little lonely lately. And he’s cold, so you know, it will be nice and warm inside you.”
I laughed. “Glad I can be of service to you, brat. I’ll be your dick warmer and you mine.”
“It’s not a bad gig.” He grabbed the lube, a condom, then lingered. “Do we need these? Now that you’re my boyfriend and we’re in love—oh my God, I sound ridiculous. Giddy because I have a boyfriend and I’m in love. What have you done to me?”
“I like it.” I kissed his shoulder. “And hey, you’re my first boyfriend too.”
“First…last…only.”
“Oh yeah, we’re going to be one of those couples. And no, we don’t need them. I haven’t been with anyone since a month or so before our first time…that would have been around April. I was checked both after him and after you.”
“It’s been even longer for me, and I was checked as well. Negative.”
I grabbed him, pulled him close. “Mmm. I can’t wait for you to fill me up.”
“This will be a first for me with no rubber, so if I blow my load the second I’m inside you, don’t hold it against me.”
“I won’t. We’ll have a lifetime to make up for it.”
Zander pushed me to my back, kissed his way down my body. My hips thrust forward when he took my erection deep in his mouth.
“Fuck yes, baby. So good.” I fisted my hand in his hair, fucked his mouth. “Yeah, that’s it. Your mouth was made for my cock, wasn’t it?”