I growl through gritted teeth, my cock pressing against the seam of my pants threatening to tear a hole through them. I would stretch her tight hole, but I know she can take it.
I know she’ll open for me, take every inch, until she’s squirting that hot orgiastic release down my length.
She collapses against the door when her orgasm passes.
I stare at her for a moment, at the way her chest rises and falls, the way she gazes up at me. Her eyes wider, her mouth hanging open.
If she knew how captivating she looked right now, she might not do that. She might understand that it’s only going to push me closer to the edge.
“I need you so fucking bad.”
I lean in for another kiss, but then she turns her face, so my lips land on her cheek.
“I’m sorry,” she whispers.
I force myself to take a step back. There’s something off about her tone.
“Is it…”
Jamie.
I can’t even say his name, not now, not with the scent of his ex-girlfriend’s lust still hovering in the air.
“No,” she says, not needing me to finish. “I mean, yes. But it’s also… listen, it’s not a big deal. It’s just I’ve never done this before. Had sex, I mean. I mean…” She groans. “I’m a virgin, Lukas. That’s what I’m trying to say.”
I grit my teeth as every muscle in my body tightens. She said the word virgin as though this would make me want her less, but it only makes me even more certain she’s the woman for me.
She is mine, every part of her… and when I take her sweet virginity, I’ll be the only one.
Forever.
But I can’t say this. She’d think I’m crazy.
Wouldn’t she?
Or is it possible she feels the same?
I almost laugh out loud at the thought. There’s no way she feels this insane feeling the same way I do, this desire to start a family, to fuse together, to never be apart for the rest of our lives.
She walks to the other side of the room, pausing near the shelves as she adjusts her pants. “I think… I don’t think I should work here anymore. I think I should find another job.” She pauses and takes a breath. “Oh, Lukas, what did we do?”
“You don’t have to be ashamed or embarrassed about being a virgin,” I tell her, trying to keep my tone level, even as it threatens to tremble with all the pent-up lust inside of me.
“Thank you for saying that. Really. And I want to… I do, honestly. But I don’t think I can. Not here. And we have to think about Jamie.”
She turns, tears shining in her eyes. She paws roughly at her cheeks, as though angry with herself for the emotion.
“I know neither of us wants to mention him. But what we just did… it would kill him if he ever found out.”
I think of my son, of the first time he smiled at me as a baby, of the way he always talked to me about his problems throughout high school. We’ve always been open with each other, as far as I know. I’m sure he has his secrets, like every son, but I can’t imagine it’s anything like this.
“We need to try and stay away from each other,” she whispers, as her voice threatens to crack.
“Is that what you want?”
I softly smooth the hair from her cheek. She turns toward my touch, as though relishing it.
“It’s not about what I want. I want you, Lukas. I want you badly. That’s the truth. But we can’t. We just… you’re Jamie’s dad.”
I nod as I take a step back, the effort costing me a hell of a lot. The word virgin keeps ringing in my mind, as though the most primal part of me is rejoicing, not thinking about the consequences.
“You’re right. Of course, you are. But I don’t think I can forget this.”
“Me neither,” she says. “But we have to try.”
I sigh heavily. “Why don’t you go home, Lori? I can lock the place up for the night.”
“Do you want the car back?” she asks.
“No. It’s yours for as long as you need it.”
She moves to brush past me, and I can’t help myself. I step into her path and kiss her again. It’s a kiss full of emotion, as both of us know we should stop and this is the wrong thing.
But it feels so right.
I’m not sure who steps away first, only that we separate. She walks past me and unlocks the door.
I stand where I am a while longer, my fists clenched, my heart pounding, every inch of me afire with passion.
How can I forget her now, after what we did, after learning she’s a virgin and I can claim her completely?
Chapter Eleven
Lorena
“Thanks for the help.”
Jamie stands at the top of the step ladder, fiddling with one end of the dangling decorations. I stand at the bottom, gripping the rungs and holding it steady.