“Keep looking at me like that and we’re never going to leave this room.” He offers me his hand and I take it as he pulls me from the bed. He gives me another one of those kisses as he brings me flush against his hard body. I moan into his mouth and warmth blossoms through me.
“Tell me this isn’t only a fling. That I mean more than that to you.” His hand slides between us and his fingers graze across my stomach.
“I think I made it clear last night this isn’t a fling.” It isn’t an I love you because I know it’s too soon for that and I can’t expect him to feel those things. I shouldn’t be feeling them at all, but I am. I try and tell myself I’m so needy for affection and attention that I’m clinging to this like it could be love but I should know better. He kisses me again, proving his point and leaving me breathless.
“Get ready or we’ll be back in the bed and Kade will be banging on the door again. This time it will end with the two of us fighting.” He gives my ass a smack and I jump because I know he’s right. Those brothers will full-out fight and then act as though it’s no big deal while their noses are busted and bleeding everywhere.
I dart into my closet and pull on a pair of white shorts then grab a bra and shirt before slipping on some shoes. When I come out Xander is dressed in his clothes from yesterday and somehow looks even sexier.
“Almost done.” I go to the bathroom and get myself together then settle with pulling my curls up because they are not going to be tamed quickly. “Let’s roll,” I say when I walk out.
He takes my hand as he leads me out of the house and over to the golf cart. It takes no time to get to the infirmary and grab what I need. Within just a few moments we’re at Kade and Collins’s house and we barely get the cart to a stop when Kade rushes out to us, looking irritated.
“I got it.” I hold up the pack of pills. “I’ll check on her.” I walk past him.
“She’s in the master,” Kade says, and I nod and open the screen door. “You. In my office.” I look over my shoulder to see Kade stepping into Xander’s path.
“I’ll see you later,” I tell Xander. He doesn’t look like he’s okay with that, but he gives me a soft smile before he turns his head to glare at his brother. “No fighting,” I shout as I head up the stairs to find Collins.
The bedroom door is open so I knock on the frame. Collins sits up immediately and her eyes widen.
“You slept with Xander,” she hisses in a low voice. I guess Kade likes to gossip.
“I thought you were sick?”
She waves her hands at my question. “I threw up a little bit but I’m fine now. You know how he is.” I step into the room and walk over toward her.
“Well, if it happens again you can take one of these. It dissolves in your mouth so you don’t need to swallow,” I say, setting the pills down on the nightstand.
“Forget about the pills.” She grabs my hand and pulls me down onto the bed to sit next to her. She wiggles all around, clearly excited about Xander and me sleeping together.
“Tell me everything.”
“Ahh…” I stall, not sure what I should say.
“Come on, Lula. I need the girl talk, so spill. I want to know everything,” she says, leaning closer to me. “You don’t have to tell me all the dirty details but give me something. I can’t even picture Xander with a woman.”
That makes me smile so I tell her some of the details and actually enjoy having a friend to talk to. In the past twelve hours I’ve gone from feeling so alone to feeling like I have people. It’s almost like having a family, but as much as I love it, I’m scared. I’m getting a taste of what life can be and I know I could easily lose it all.
Chapter Nine
Xander
“You care to tell me what the fuck you think you’re doing?” Kade crosses his arms over his chest as I take a seat in the chair next to his desk.
“You walked in the room, Kade. If you don’t know what that was I’m afraid to ask how your wife got pregnant.”
His anger builds and I watch his face redden as he uncrosses his arms and stomps over to his desk. “This is serious, Xander.”
Normally I’m not the one that needs to be told to take things seriously, so this is a bit of a role reversal for the two of us. “It’s also none of your goddamn business.”