I balance myself as I remain on top of her. She smiles up at me and we kiss once more. I pull out of her, toss the condom in the trash can by the bed, and lie beside her. She turns to face me.
I notice that there is a glittering happiness in her eyes today. It mirrors the same happiness in my heart. I haven’t felt this way in a really long time. I’m scared to tell her, but I’m also afraid that I could lose her for good this time. Her hand rests softly on my cheek. This startles me and brings me back to reality. “What are you thinking so hard about?” She asks softly.
When I look at her, I see nothing but love and concern on her face. I know right then I have to tell her how I feel. I don’t know how to say it. Is there any right way to tell someone something like this?
“You know you can tell me anything?” She coaxes. “I’m here for you no matter what.”
I realize then why it’s called falling in love. It’s a risk. Sometimes you are going to get hurt. The only thing you can do is have trust in the person that you chose. And I realize that there is no one better to give my trust to than Lorelai.
My feelings start to overwhelm me and I just blurt out, “I love you.”
The room is quiet for a few seconds. We both lie there looking at each other. My heart pounds like a snare drum. “I love you too,” she breathes finally, the most beautiful words I’ve ever heard, “In fact, I think I have since our first date.”
. I breathe a sigh of relief. I can tell by her reaction that her feelings are genuine. I know that I made the right choice in giving my heart to her. I pull her to me so tightly she lets out a squeak.
“Sorry, I got carried away.” I reply sheepishly.
She pulls out of my arms and gives me a soft kiss. “It’s ok, I just wasn’t expecting the sudden rib crushing,” she replies with a teasing laugh. give her a genuine smile, which she returns. “I like this side of you,” She remarks.
“What do you mean?”
“This happiness that you have right now,” She explains. “Being in love suits you.”
She’s right, for the first time in my life, I am truly happy, and it’s all because of her.
Chapter 19
Lorelai
A year later
Time certainly flies when you’re having fun. Or this case, when you’re in love. It’s been a crazy year but I can honestly say that it’s the happiest I have ever been. Who would have thought that you could find true love at a sex auction? I guess crazier things have happened.
It’s late, almost evening now. I check my phone. No missed calls or messages. I’m starting to get a little worried. I haven’t heard from Gabriel all day. It’s completely unlike him. I pace the living room of our apartment. We moved in together after about 6 months of dating. Things seemed to be going really well between us. Gabriel was acting like a different person. Happier, more open with his feelings.
I haven’t felt any more of that fear or worry from him. I guess I accomplished what I set out to. I was able to fix his heart and we found love with each other. My phone buzzes suddenly. I grab quickly off the couch. I’m relieved to see it’s a text from him. I hurriedly open it. I read “Meet me at the rose garden.”
My brow furrows and I feel my worry spike. Could something be wrong? Why would he text me to meet him there instead of just coming home?
I sigh and grab my purse and keys, texting him back that I’m on my way. I have to get to the bottom of this. I have to know why he’s acting so weird. I hurry out the door and to my car. I get in quickly and drive away as fast as I can. I expect my phone to chime, but there is no reply.
“This is so bizarre.” I think to myself. The light turns green and I drive away. I think back over the past few months since we have been together. Everything was perfect, better than perfect. In fact, it was only these past few days that things started to change. He started acting differently. He has been abnormally quiet. I try to start a conversation at home, and it’s one word answers, if even that. Today he didn’t even answer my calls. The only time I heard from him was the text I received a little while ago.
Fear grips me. “What if this has all been too much for him? What if he’s going back to how he used to be?”