Whatever. I realized now I was a never-ending wallet and little more to them.
My thoughts went back to Noah. A smile curved my lips. I didn’t regret not telling them about him. I wanted to see him again.
I can't just approach him, though.
In the few times I did see him around campus; he was almost always around people in his classes. When he was alone, he looked to be in a hurry, or busy on his phone. I’d never thought about approaching him before, but now that the thought had entered my mind, I realized it was entirely impossible. Besides, I’d only glanced at him a few times. I only knew he was a senior because we never went into the same buildings, he only went where the senior classes were held.
There was always that option, though.
Even if I wasn’t a virgin anymore, I intended to Sext him one more time.Chapter Six
NoahIt was a Saturday, but instead of going out to have some fun, I was locked in my room. All my roommates were out doing one thing or another. There were Saturday classes, but I was free for today, and I stayed in.
I was in the middle of editing a paper when my phone vibrated on the table. I narrowed my eyes at it. Not that I didn’t have a lot of people to talk to, but I was very suspicious about who it was that would contact me right then.
Sara?
The person that jumped into my mind was, of course, the one person I couldn’t seem to forget the whole day. I picked the phone up, and I wasn’t even surprised to find a tweet from her.
“Would you like to meet up again?”
I set the phone down, braced my elbow on the desk and leaned my head on my palm, then tapped the fingers of my free hand on the desk. I stared at that message until my screen went dark a few seconds later.
You can’t, I told myself. I shouldn’t, I knew that, but it didn’t change that I wanted to.
“You’re not a virgin. It doesn’t count.”
In truth, she didn’t have to be a virgin for this to count. After all, I wasn’t in this to deflower virgins for fun. I was in it for the money. But I didn’t think a second date was a good idea, especially since I hadn’t been able to get her off of my mind all day when I was supposed to be doing assignments.
Last night was a huge mistake.
Because the fee was so high, I didn’t expect to have anyone call me more than once. It’s just sex. If someone wanted to have sex with someone else in college, then it wasn’t that hard. Parties were going on all the time where people got to mingle and hooked up. I’d done it myself as a freshman. So, unless they were shy, in which case they really shouldn’t be looking to a stranger, or conscious about their looks, only a few special cases would pay for sex in college. Yeah, I had done some research on it, so I knew. Not to mention, it was really risky.
The other virgins I’d met through the Sext Me line, just wanted to have it over and done with. They were more conscious about being virgins than being around a guy.
Sara could have fallen under that, but she was also the first person to ask for me a second time. It was a surprise, especially after how nervous she’d been before we started.
“Ugh,” I groaned, and leaned back in my chair as I closed my eyes.
In my mind, I could picture last night. After she’d fallen asleep in my arms, I had been tempted to stay. I’d almost fallen asleep with her. I wouldn’t have woken up until morning, and even if I could be up before she was and leave, the risk that others would notice me as I left her room was high. Reluctantly, I’d pulled myself from her warm bed and gotten dressed. I left her room and made sure the door was properly locked, before I went back to my own place.
When I woke up this morning, in my bed, alone, I’d felt so much regret I wanted to slap myself.
Sara paid me for sex, and for an hour at that. Not to play the part of her boyfriend. The bad part about it was that there was a part of me that wanted to. Play her boyfriend that is. I wasn’t in love with her or anything, I barely knew her. Sex also wasn’t the best way to start a relationship, but when I started to think about what it would be like to wake up next to her beautiful heart-shaped face, our bodies snuggled together in my bed and soft, morning kisses, I knew it was more than just lust.