We stare at each other. I drag my eyes down to the sheets, I’m still annoyed with him.
“I’m sorry, Eliza.
“For what?”
“I should have told you that I knew her.”
“You should have. Do you have any idea how stupid I felt when she introduced herself to me?”
He presses his lips together but stays silent. I run my fingers through the hairs on his chest as I think.
“What do you want to know?” he asks. My eyes hold his. “Ask me anything about that night, and I’ll answer you honestly and truthfully. I promise.”
I focus on the hair on his chest as I run the backs of my fingers back and forth.
“Lize,” he says softly as he puts his finger under my chin, bringing my face to his. “You wanted to talk about this last night, so let’s talk about it.”
I press my lips together, unsure what to say without sounding whiny. I hate jealous insecure girls, and here I am being a queen one.
“Talk to me…”
“I feel betrayed,” I whisper.
“Why?”
“Because you say you cared for me and you went to another female friend for sexual favors.
How can I not be upset? It feels like you cheated on me.”
He exhales heavily as if frustrated. “Imagine if the role was reversed, Nathan. You are going ballistic about me going on a work conference with Henry. Imagine if I told you that I have feelings for you but I went to Henry for sexual satisfaction.”
His eyes become murderous. “Don’t even fucking say that.”
I shrug. “That’s how it feels.”
“You and I weren’t together at that stage.”
“So why did you tell me that you didn’t know her?”
“I told you I knew her.”
“Not as well as you do.”
“Because she’s irrelevant to our story.”
“Not to me.”
He stays silent as his eyes hold mine.
“Tell me what happened that night with her.”
“I don’t want that shit in your head, babe.” He sighs sadly as he pushes the hair back from my face. “Why would you want to know that?”
“It’s eating me alive, Nathan. I need to know.”
“Promise me that we aren’t going to fight about this. I mean it, Lize. If we talk about this, you can’t hold it against me. It’s not fair.”
“Don’t talk to me about fair, Nathan, because you have no fucking idea of the meaning of the word.”